Gnosis and Theophany

Just wanted to take a moment to post that I’m not dead. Just been ‘barely breathing’ the past week or so dealing with some personal issues that had risen unexpectedly.

Gotta love life…always throws something at you.

I’m going to be posting a video blog tomorrow…so stay tuned for that.

But never fear My little sycophants…Goddess just needed to retreat for a while to rejuvenate Herself.

Well, I attempted to get My taxes done this evening, only to succeed in giving Myself a headache. Joy. Rapture.

Have I mentioned though I understand the need for taxes – I have them?

I have been rather distant of late, yes…and that is because I have been dealing with a number of personal issues of late, particularly with squire AND TPO. Gotta love timing, sometimes. squire decided to forget his place and I’m still slowly working on getting him back to where he was and -should- be. As for TPO, you aren’t going to get details. Frankly, I don’t feel like discussing it.

2010 is starting off rather slowly, in the grand scheme of things, and I have been finding Myself rather tired at the end of the day, more often then not.

I am working on relocating My residence. That’s always fun. I actually quite enjoy unpacking and redecorating…it’s the packing it all away that I can’t stand.

I have a rather interesting situation I’m trying to work out. Mainly regarding My business and what phones to get again. Of course, I’ve mentioned how much I want the

AND the

Well NOW there is the

AND the

The only issue? Lotus, Pixi and Lotus Elite is on Sprint, Pixi Plus is on Verizon.

*sighs*

So do I keep Verizon and upgrade to the Pixi Plus for all the awesome features and get a second line through Sprint OR do I get rid of Verizon all together for the Lotus Elite and ‘normal’ Pixi?

Decisions, Decisions.

By the way, there ARE pics of Me available for purchase, including hi-res profressional pics that are artistically NUDE here.

Anyway My lovelies…I’m glad you missed Me and I’ll try to be on a little more to feed your cravings…

Good night and till later…

~E

Really, I do!

Took a guy tonight for everything he had left in his account. Sure, it wasn’t nearly as much as I deserve….but ot’s the very fact that I did it and HOW I did it.

Firstly, you need to understand that he’s one of the very first callers that I received on TalkSugar. he’s one of My ignore boys…the ones that say nothing and revel in the fact that I just put the phone down and ignore them to no end. he was extremely good about calling Me fairly regularly to begin with then …*poof*… he was gone.

Apparently had some issues with his home. you know, regular plumbing bullshit.

he came back tonight, and luckily for him, he did so with a vengence! Two calls on My cam line plus a number of messages back and forth while I convinced him to call.

Mind you, he’s doing this while his girlfriend is in the other room getting drunk. he had been trying to watch porn quietly so she wouldnt know and I convinced him to call Me on the cam line instead…

I mean, really, what’s the point in watching plain old porn when you can participate some? Right?

First call was very typical for his call – he says nothing and I go about My merry way just draining his wallet….second call sub-sub got bra and panties and a little tease. he deserved a little for his constant devotion.

And the best of the best is that the whole time I was texting TPO details and he was getting into it too.

LOVE IT!

So yummy.

Now see little pervs? Lavish the Goddess and She may reward her devoted followers. Course, understand you’re paying for My time, so whatever I do or don’t do is PURELY up to Me and you have absolutely NO say in the matter. Oh well. Kinda like playing Russian Roulette.

Will have some more updates to the website here shortly. Should be fun. squire has had some things to do.

However My slavelings, it’s time for Me to join the Sandman in slumber…

Til later

~E

I’ve been a bit remiss in updating it seems. Oh well. I’m certainly not going to apologize for having a life and look at you waiting with baited breath for the next morsel of My presence, as I’ve yet to really divulge a great deal of wisdom to the masses. I could wax poetic on a number of issues going on in the world right now, but I choose to refrain here for now.

Why?

Well, because this is partly My own escape. A means to show you a taste of what you would feel and receive were you to actually serve Me in any manner, be it on the phones, over the web or in real life.

That being said, the other night I FINALLY got to see Avatar

Yes, yes, I know I’m a little behind in My movie going. I didn’t even see it in 3D, just regular old film.

That being said, visually it lived up to all the hype. Overall, I enjoyed it greatly. Was a good ride and I can certainly understand people going to see it multiple times for the wow factor.

Storyline was, well….typical and there were points in the writing where I felt it could be stronger but they bailed. Acting, for what they had to work with script wise, was good.

I adored their take on energy and Deity. I love it when they can give Me a scientific explanation for Divinity and have it work.

Beyond that, and the visual artistry that is Pandora, I have to admit I was salivating over:

man is simply yummy and I would love to break him. Have him tied up and get to leave My marks in his flesh. *shivers*

Of course, TPO took Me and We had a great dinner beforehand, in spite of his recovering from being under the weather. you wish it were you, don’t you, who got to take Me out and show Me a wonderful evening complete with star-studded fantasies of torture?

Suck it up slaveling, suck it up.

Course, We got home so late that nothing got to happen. *pouts* Only a few hours of sleep before heading back to the real world of responsibility doesn’t help One to get Their beauty sleep, that’s for certain.

So needless to say I’m a bit sleep deprived still and dealing, yet again, with a disrespectful downstairs neighbor who seems to think I WANT to hear the same 5 songs played over and over again.

Start forking it out pets…Momma needs new digs ASAP. Wouldn’t it be nice to know you helped relocate your Goddess to someplace much more representative of Her Superiority?

Til later…

~E

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So today was the day that Mother Nature decided I should pay Her homage Myself. Yes, even this Deity has to pay the price for the power and ability to create, sustain and nurture life. Generally, I don’t mind it all too much. It’s a worthy sacrifice to make and it rarely gets in the way of My enjoyment. Hell, at times it will even heighten it if I feel aggressive, have the appropriate outlet or feel free to enjoy physical release.

Today, however, I’m just plain old hormonal and THAT sucks.

To make matters worse – I have one of My little slavelings talking to Me and he’s being his usual ass-kissing self. Usually it makes Me laugh and for that reason I keep him around. he’s like My own personal little jester – usually. Today however, he crossed a rather HUGE line.

Conversation was ‘normal’ enough to being with:

(FyI: Snippets had been included. slavelings name has been changed to protect him – though really, he doesn’t deserve it)

idiot (1/11/2010 8:25:03 PM): You are all I’ve thought about since we’ve spoken. This is getting painful.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:25:10 PM): it should be
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:25:26 PM): distance from Me should be a horrible thing
idiot (1/11/2010 8:25:31 PM): It totally is.
idiot (1/11/2010 8:25:46 PM): You can’t keep me in this position.
idiot (1/11/2010 8:26:00 PM): You have to let up at some point.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:26:07 PM): good, then it’s also a proper reminder of your place and how easily it is for Me to remove you even further from My graces if you push Me
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:26:26 PM): let up? why, how so pathetic little worm?
idiot (1/11/2010 8:26:40 PM): Its just frustrating.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:26:41 PM): Maybe I -like- you here, craving Me so desperately
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:27:00 PM): and how would you deem for Me to ‘let up’ on you, hmmm?
idiot (1/11/2010 8:27:03 PM): Seriously, there’s like a pain in my gut.
idiot (1/11/2010 8:27:28 PM): Its like being lovesick, but I know that can’t be.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:27:37 PM): I’ve heard that happens when My devoted little slavelings upset and/or are refused My presence.

idiot (1/11/2010 8:44:02 PM): I’m watching your New Year’s Eve video.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:44:08 PM): Oh?
idiot (1/11/2010 8:44:14 PM): Yum.
idiot (1/11/2010 8:44:32 PM): You are just too beautiful.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:44:42 PM): Good….
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:44:51 PM): I was rather pleased with Myself that night
idiot (1/11/2010 8:44:57 PM): It came off well.

Then he got a little stupid, but recovered quickly enough:

idiot (1/11/2010 8:59:13 PM): You know, one of the most frustrating things about this, is that I can’t come over there and straighten you out sometimes.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:59:24 PM): EXCUSE Me?!
idiot (1/11/2010 8:59:35 PM): Just a joke, Goddess.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 8:59:48 PM): bitch would be on your knees right now begging Me for mercy for that show of disrespect
idiot (1/11/2010 9:00:05 PM): I’d drop to my knees in a heartbeat.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:00:17 PM): just for that, no more cam for you
idiot (1/11/2010 9:00:29 PM): what? no, please Goddess.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:00:39 PM): be thankful I didnt tell you to fuck off
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:00:54 PM): stupid little cunt
idiot (1/11/2010 9:01:31 PM): I just, need you so. I get carried away sometimes.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:01:40 PM): ’straightening out’ is something I dont need – and even if I DID you measly little insect it certainly wouldnt be -you- to do it
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:02:21 PM): nor would you ever have the power, authority or inclination to do so seeing as you are so FAR beneath Me as to make Me laugh with your dirt
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:02:30 PM): remember that whore
idiot (1/11/2010 9:02:34 PM): Yes, I understand.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:02:38 PM): You’re right Goddess.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:02:57 PM): and under no circumstances would I actually do that.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:03:08 PM): then you had best not SAY it with Me either
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:03:23 PM): as speaking it is akin to sacriledge
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:03:28 PM): *sacrilege
idiot (1/11/2010 9:03:52 PM): that’s really all I get is speaking with you.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:04:04 PM): Its confining.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:04:16 PM): then you best remember how it is you should ACT with Me
idiot (1/11/2010 9:04:29 PM): Please forgive me Goddess.

eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:04:57 PM): beg Me whore

idiot (1/11/2010 9:04:59 PM): It is I who needs you, and I’m well aware of that.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:05:05 PM): (drops to knees)
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:05:08 PM): keep going…
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:05:20 PM): tell Me how pathetic you are and how your life is incomplete with Me
idiot (1/11/2010 9:05:38 PM): My love for you has been growing, to a point that I can’t control it.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:05:58 PM): You and I both know that with a ~snap~ of your fingers, you could kick me to the curb.

idiot (1/11/2010 9:06:35 PM): I’m begging you. Begging you. I need this. I need your ruling hand, whether kind or cruel, over me.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:06:37 PM): and yes, I could. easily.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:07:02 PM): Heart is palpitating isnt it?
idiot (1/11/2010 9:07:10 PM): Big time.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:07:18 PM): so scared and worried I’ll tell you to go away and never bother Me again
idiot (1/11/2010 9:07:21 PM): My mind spins when I think of You.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:07:31 PM): I couldn’t take that Goddess.

The conversation resumed, and granted, I should have just cut him off there – but due to the holidays he hadn’t gotten much of My precious time, so I indulged him.

Of course, then he went and ROYALLY fucked up:

idiot (1/11/2010 9:16:19 PM): permission to cuss?
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:16:43 PM): *laughs* sure, this will be funny!
idiot (1/11/2010 9:16:52 PM): You Fucking Bitch.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:17:10 PM): i guess You think this is funny?
idiot (1/11/2010 9:17:45 PM): like grinding a roach into the sidewalk with Your high heel.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:18:08 PM): You piece of Fucking Shit.
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:18:26 PM): well now THAT wasn’t what I expected when I gave you permission to cuss. you will NEVER talk about or direct that kind of tone to Me EVER again!
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:18:41 PM): I’m not a fucking switch you pissed up little whore.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:18:53 PM): switch?
eavan_isolde (1/11/2010 9:19:45 PM): ie…I’m not the sort to take abuse. This is all you’re getting tonight whore. I
idiot (1/11/2010 9:20:10 PM): I asked for permission.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:20:16 PM): Please Goddess?
idiot (1/11/2010 9:20:29 PM): I need you.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:20:35 PM): I’ve been starving.
idiot (1/11/2010 9:21:18 PM): Please?
idiot (1/11/2010 9:22:56 PM): Goddess I need you!
idiot (1/11/2010 9:22:59 PM): Please?

Now, many would feel I should totally dismiss him right then and there. I certainly have every right to. But it’s more fun to do things like this for starters, and secondly it’s his first -real- offense in his servitude towards Me. he’s being given one more shot, lucky little bastard, though if he EVER disrespects Me in such a way EVER again he’s gone and I’ve made that very clear to him. his punishment has been sent and he has the week with which to fulfill it. If he doesn’t, then no skin off My teeth.

I’m posting this as well as a reminder for any other current (or potential) slavelings. you’re getting My time, nothing more. My time is expensive, valuable and precious. you will not waste it and when you are allowed to have My time you will respect Me and appreciate it. I am not to be treated or spoken to in such a manner by anyone. missteps such as this are HUGE and premise for your dismissal from My schedule. May this be a lesson for you all.

With that being said, I’m heading to bed.

Til later

~E

I have had a headache for most of the day today. I haven’t taken anything for it, because I generally don’t like to take medication unless I absolutely HAVE to. It’s not bad enough to medicate, but it’s just annoying enough to drive Me insane.

Doesn’t help that the neighbor downstairs, who has already established himself to be a selfish asshole, has decided that 8:30 at night is a WONDERFUL time to be thoroughly cleaning his apartment.

I’m thinking tonight is going to be a very early night.

Today was, by and by, a very laid back day. I got to have a bit of a conversation with squire on the phone today that was, well, beyond enjoyable. It’s wonderful to hear someone literally do everything you tell them to, no matter how painful it may be. Even more to hear him beg Me for more of it.  Poor thing deserved some pleasure, however, as he’s been in total chastity for a few weeks now. Obviously that pleasure was only because I allowed it and it pleased Me as well.

Tomorrow it’s back to the usual grind. Really though, I can’t complain. I absolutely adore My mundane job as well as My boss who is a Woman to be respected and admired for what She does for Her employees. I would go insane without a job to keep Me occupied during My day. I can only tolerate the whining and begging of slavelings for so long! Not to mention ,there is something truly delicious about being in the ‘vanilla’ world and having this dark, wonderful, delicious veil to retreat to.

I always have to wonder sometimes what goes through the heads and hearts of the people I see day in and day out.

In so much as I requested that Mother Nature provide Me a cold Christmas this year – I should have realized that She works on Her own schedule and though the request may be honored, it most likely wouldn’t be how I would have intended My plea to be taken. She, of course, has delivered, albeit a little more bitterly then I had originally hoped for.

It is currently 36 degrees in Sunny Sarasota, with a feels like temp of 28. The low tonight is actually supposed to be 28, which obviously means that the feels like variety will be in the low 20’s. In My opinion, if it’s IS going to be this cold, especially for the duration that this particular wave has settled into My backyard, it best be accompanied by snow.

**sighs**

Oh well, some tea, then off to My comfy, cozy bed to dream of the sounds of adorable men whimpering for Me.

Til later!

~E

It’s 3 am in the morning here and I’m just NOW starting to feel the effects of sleep! That’s what I get for being persistent and driven I tell ya!

Had some updates I needed to do to the site that I wanted to get done. Needed to add a second blog amongst other things and decided to also revamp a few pages as well. Those updates will be forth coming, however, in the process of doing that I royally fucked up (as only a Queen can!) and destroyed My original blog. **sighs**

Oh well, sometimes things really do happen for very valid reasons, and I’m actually happier with this brand new one by comparison to the old. Course, I’m still learning this whole WP thing having been a long time user of things like livejournal, myspace and that crap.

Still trying to get on the twitter bandwagon and use it for full functionality networking. At least I have the sidebar set up to be able to not only show tweets as I make them, but to be able to post them directly from My blog if I so desire AND update My tweetfeed when I create a new blog post. Lovely!

I have been getting a few requests lately for trample sessions as well! Find it rather funny really. Haven’t approved any of them yet, but just the rash of them is rather comical. Even more so the fact that none of them have shown, in My opinion, proper respect which leads Me to believe that they aren’t truly looking to serve a Divine Being, but merely just have some pretty girl walk on them so that they can say they tried out something ‘extreme’. No point wasting My time. Money isn’t worth being bored.

Even more so when they are so horribly specific about what they want. “First I’d like you to do this, then this, then I’d like to end it this way.” Well damn bastard, if you want to script it down to the minute details how about you go find some twit who thinks she can play ‘edgy’ and have her act out your fantasy? There is no room there for Me to be able to do what -I- enjoy, and if you are coming to Me asking for My time, then not only should you show Me the respect I deserve as a Superior Woman, but also come to Me with suggestions instead of just stone-cold demands.

The advantage of them coming to Me is that I can be choosy and set extremely high standards for My precious and valuable presence. Remember that potential slavelings.

Well, at least I got a lot of work done on the site tonight. Need to do a little more tomorrow then hopefully get it launched!

Welcome Me back kitties….Momma’s home!

Till later-

~E