Gnosis and Theophany

So this weekend I decided I wanted to learn how to shoot a gun. Not ever having done so, the whole thing intrigued Me and I will admit to wanting to overcome My personal anxieties about firearms. My family never kept them; sport shooting, hunting, etc weren’t hobbies any of the men in My family partook of.

Lucky for Me, squire is fluent in firearms. So guess what he got to so this past weekend? he had the honor and priviledge to take Me to the shooting range, offer Me instruction on safety and techniques, and rent Me a gun to use for practice. 

he was even obedient enough to take a picture of Me in the process! I was rather impressed by that, as I had really mentioned it in passing that we should take pics while we were there, and lo and behold what did I get delivered to My phone a little later that evening?

Gotta love it!

My hand, unfortunately is very sore from the recoil on the weapong itself, and I’m sad to report that My targetting needs a ton of practice. I have to learn to relax into it more and stop anaylzying Myself in the process. Seems I’m as hard on Myself as I am My devotees. But that’s only because I hold Myself to high standards, as I expect to be treated accordingly.

I was quite proud of one particular target however, so I kept it for posterity. Mind you, again, I haven’t EVER picked up a firearm before this, so I was rather proud of My progress initially. I realize it will take more practice and look forward to going back soon enough to do just that!

I don’t remember now which target number this was, and one of the ones after it, in My frustration for missing completely, I hit the ring around the bullseye itself….but this one I was still very pleased with, all things considered.

Needless to say, I loved it and very much want to continue this new skill! Just have to remember advice I give to prospects…just breathe. Trust yourself, relax and breath. Good thing I’m patient as all hell! *winks*

In addition to that, I also managed to skin My own thumb in the process. Apparently My nail was just long enough, and was jagged from being snagged, and every time I pulled the trigger I managed to scrap off a little more skin on that first box of ammo.

Had to resist the urge to stick the finger into My mouth and ‘clean’ it. There was a pretty decent amount of blood, but with the dust from firing and what not, I didn’t think it the best idea.

Band-aid was located and use for the second box and that improved things some.

squire and I then spent the rest of the day shopping, even though he was exhausted from lack of sleep. his natal day is coming up fairly quickly and I really need to figure out what to get him for it.

Anyway, going to watch the mindless drivel that is “True Beauty” and relax before heading to bed. Just wanted to post about My lovely little outing this weekend.

Til later -

-E

So I’m at work (yes, I work. Eventually I won’t have to now, will I kitties?) and I’m on My personal account in Facebook (here in referred to as FB) land. No, I don’t have one set up for My sadistic pleasures, deal.

I’m plodding along My day when an Instant Message (here in referred to as IM) pops up. Okay cool. It’s someone that requested to friend Me eons ago. I didn’t know him ,but being that he had a few people that he knew from My younger years who were pretty cool I decided to give him a shot. I have had one (brief) prior conversation with him on FB IM. This is a transcript of the conversation so as to show males, vanilla, BDSM or otherwise how NOT to approach a Female – regardless her inclinations.

Names (both his and My own) have been changed for protection.

Mind you, I was going exceptionally easy on him seeing as A.) this is My vanilla personal account, B.) he has no idea about My Interests, and C.) he wasn’t paying Me to berate or humiliate him and he did such a lovely job of it himself….why should I bother?

Idiot
hey babe

2:12pmMe
Um hi

2:15pmIdiot
hey babe

2:15pmMe
already said that idiot

2:15pmIdiot
well
I KNOW THAT
oops caps
haha
miss you
well?

2:17pmMe
Ok…let me set out some boundaries here. 1.) I’m not all that comfy with people I dont know calling me babe – but will generally let it go cause I realize that a lot of people use that genericall. 2.) telling me you miss me when we haven’t really ever talked is just…odd….to me.

2:20pmMe
Just my level of comfort for you to know about

3:06pmIdiot
ok
were straight

3:10pmMe
good

3:11pmIdiot
haha
cool\
i love your level of comfort

3:13pmIdiot
and far be it for te fuck it up
me
to fuck it up

3:14pmMe
I just dont appreciate people showing levels of intimacy that aren’t warranted, more or less cleared as acceptable. I never understand that with people.
I just think it’s disrespectful

3:15pmIdiot
ok,I’ll just call you woman..??

3:15pmMe
that will get you smacked

3:15pmIdiot
haha

3:15pmMe
and not in a playful way

3:15pmIdiot
ok
so what should i call you..
??
cuz I feel a kinda bond with you
but if you want me to feel indifferent..

3:17pmMe
My name works quite well and look, I realize you’re trying to be all jovial and what not, and that’s fine, but if you’re going to act in this manner with me, I’d just prefer not to. And how can you feel a bond with someone you’ve only spoken to, briefly at that, in IM once?

3:17pmIdiot
ok granted
I just felt something
guess i was wrong??
>/???????????????????
ok miss Isolde..
nice to met you
meet
wow..you have soo figured me out
amazing
and me being jovial…damn..

3:22pmIdiot
I was just tryin to be nice…..so I guess that classifies me as bein jovial..get your classfications straight before you judge me,,thanks,
later]

idiot has since been removed from My friends list, needless to say. I wouldn’t tolerate that in any area of My life, period. And apparently the idiot needs to update his vocabulary.

So take this to heart My eager little bitches – when approaching someone for the first time, or if you don’t have a developed relationship with said person in question:

1.) don’t show a level of intimacy that is non-existent.
2.) don’t try to be a comical idiot when they explain their boundaries, especially when they are giving you benefit of the doubt and doing so courteously
3.) don’t go getting all defensive when the Female figures you out in a few heartbeats and you don’t get what you want.

It’s all unbecoming and, quite frankly, makes Me laugh though not in the way you would like Me to.

So chew on that for a while kitties….

Til later

-E

But good none-the-less!

Saw Robin Hood last night. I was rather underwhelmed, which is truly what I expected going in; so at least it didn’t let Me down. I felt as though I were watching Gladiator only 500 years later and with a better love interest. Though I could appreciate the new spin on a classic ballad, it didn’t give Me anything new I hadn’t seen before.

Spent the day shopping with squire. I didn’t get much, honestly. Nothing really caught My interest today and said BUY ME though there were a number of times, much to My delight that squire was a good pet and asked if there was anything of interest he should get for Me.

Such a good pet. he really is trying to come to terms with himself in order to properly serve Me. Got a bit cocky…excuse the pun…the other night during sex but when he saw how easy it was for Me to literally pull away and ‘turn it off’ I’m certain he understood. Luckily for him I not only enjoy him servicing Me, but I love the little bastard.

he’s also working on preparing a bit of a vacation for Me this summer…one which you can all contribute to as well since it will be right after My birthday. you know what that means, too, don’t you? I’ll be expecting to be WELL and truly taken care of for My natal day festivities. I expect you all to address and lavish presents on Me accordingly. At least I’m giving you time to prepare.

Tomorrow is suiting up to be a day of working and rest – how I’m going to manage to accomplish both yet remains to be seen. But I’m certain in My own ability to accomplish it.

But since it is very late, and I want to finish reading Changes I am signing off My phone lines (Talksugar & Niteflirt) Though I’m logged off to receive calls, it doesnt mean you cant still send Me monetary signs of your devotion through tithes. Get to it pigs!

I may even reward you if you impress Me.

Til later

-E

after doing some reading. Currently reading “Changes” by Jim Butcher. It’s one of the Dresden Files books; a series I am rather fond of.

Of course, would be better if the jackass downstairs wasn’t blaring his music again. Had My nightly television vegging interrupted by some bob seger. Course, I highly doubt he’s sashaying around in his white dress shirt, tightie white-ies and socks playing air guitar.

I unfortunately had to call local authorities on him as last time I tried to do anything about it (by stomping around on his head) I was promtly told to “call the police you stupid bitch”

Well ahem. Excuse Me?

Oh well. I’ve tried to be a considerate neighbor long enough. I even followed the traditional ‘chain’ of complaints; first to him, then to the office manager, before calling in the cavalry. I just really hate calling in the boys in blue. They have much more important things to worry about then an inconsiderate ass who can’t seem to realize that the world doesnt revolve around him.

It revolves around Me. Lets get that straight, shall we?

Not to mention, it gets past 10 PM…you do the proper thing and turn your fucking stereo down. Plain and simple.

Anyway, going to get cozy and hopefully get some sleep soon.

Til later –

-Eavan

which is why, if you decide to get off your lazy asses to send Me money throughTalkSugar or NiteFlirt you’re going to get MY lazy ass milking you dry while I ignore you.

Been rather blah most of today – not sure if it was the rainy Florida weather or just this headache that’s prevailed most of the afternoon. Regardless, The Tudors are on tonight so I’ll stay up to watch that. Gotta love Me some Jonathon Rhys Meyers. Yummy. Henry Cavil isn’t that hard on the eyes either. Rather partial to him. Gotta love it when men look delicious in period clothing. Not an easy thing to do, mind you. Most men look rather foolish. But there are some that are simply divine. This would be two of them.

Of course, I love the show itself. So horribly decadent. Not a bad bit of drama and entertainment for an hour a week or so. I’ve loved it from the very beginning and it’s one of the highlights to My week to get to sit down and enjoy it.

Granted, as actors they are merely figments to be enjoyed from a far. But how much would I love to get My hands on either of them and leave marks on their backs?

Beyond that I’ve spend the weekend rather quietly. squire being unavailable is a nuisance, but it’s part of life really. I’ve debated taking on others, but simply haven’t found one that I feel worthy of My actual real life attention. That and I just dont want to bring someome else into My home just yet. Want more space for that, and more things to play with. I really do need a proper play space.

Hoping that the jackass downstairs will continue his quietness. I prefer him that way, and since I’m unable to go down and pound the living crap out of him like I want to most of the time due to the laws of society (damn society!), I can appreciate when things are as I desire them to be.

Which reminds Me…here are the links for My lines should you be obedient to My desires:

New callers get 3 minutes free towards their first call!

or

New customers not only get $5 free towards their first purchase, but with their current promotion I could win up to $3000. Best get your ass in gear slaveling!

I have also been trying to get more involved with Twitter, but that requires followers. It’s also a good way to stay updated on My comings (ahem) and goings since My blog automatically updates on My twit feed. Best for you to go and sign up for that, too.

I have been trying to think of various videos and videos updates I can do as well. And brainstorming contests to boot. Perhaps that’s why I have such a headache tonight.

Oh well, off to lounge and enjoy the rest of My evening. Fill it up good chattel.

Til later-

-E

Now I just need to update My site! That will be My main focus this evening I think. In addition to doing laundry. squire is unavailable and I don’t have the desire to go out, so Domestic Goddess I will be.

First and foremost I would like to offer My personal thanks and gratitude for any and all who have worn a uniform. Today is US Armed Forces Day after all, and My appreciation for the men and Women who had made the ultimate decision to serve their country is unlimited.

I am a strong supporter of our military and feel that they should be respected their sacrifices. Their families as well for all that they endure. It is a generally thankless, and difficult job, regardless of branch or level of service.

Let us not forget, as well, the men and Women who are first responders on our home soil. The police, emt, firefighter et al who run towards the danger while the rest of us run away. Their courage, determination and will are to be commended.

Make sure,  as this is also the end of National Police Week, that you thank those in uniform you see. you would be amazed at how far a small show of appreciation can go, and what it can do for those that rarely get to hear it.

So what do you think of the redesign, hm? It’s rare I ask for opinions so you mine as well take advantage of it while you have the chance.

I’m hoping, at least, that the idiotic neighbor downstairs from Me is considerate enough NOT to blast his radio tonight. I’m rather tired of listening to “Sweet Home Alabama”, “Walking in Memphis” and a myriad of Elton John classics. What I wouldn’t give to be able to string him up and whip the hell out of his hide. Alas, I doubt he’d been copacetic to that idea and as much as I’d like to punch the fucker in the face, I have no desire to see the inside of a cell.

Sure would be fun to pummel his scrawny ass though. Especially after last week when he yelled up thruogh the floor that I was a ’stupid bitch’.

Yeah, great way to win friends and influence people there boy-o.

Anyway, I am looking for a new place to reside. Would prefer to rent a house this time so perhaps I’ll be able to find something suitable. want to help? Make it so I can easily get the hell out of here and afford someplace worthy of Me!

I may write more later. For now…ciao!

you are needed, I tell you!

There are a number of things I want to do in the next few months – mostly travel related. To do that, however, I need your tithes! Yes. Money. Cash. Really, that’s what you’re good for to Me. Well, cash and a damn good laugh!

What is it for – you inquire? I just said it’s mostly travel related.

What do you get out of it? Well, firstly, you get to please ME and that should be the most important desire in your pathetic little bodies. Secondly, I get to go out and enjoy Myself whole-heartedly. And, I would even consider posting during the events themselves so that you can follow along with Me.

Oh – and for those that DO actually participate in this “call to wallets”, I’ll send you wonderful little emails, possibly with exclusive pictures, for….ahem….. your enjoyment.

So how do you do that? How do you get Me your hard earned cash to put a smile on My face and My attention in your inbox?

A few things:

First, I now accept payment via AlertPay. This also means you pay Me via credit card! Yahoo!

Click on any of the below links to send Me cash direct!

$50.00 Tribute

$100 Tribute

$150 Tribute

$200 Tribute

Secondly, TalkSugar is still doing their promotion for the most new customers to sign up. Host that pulls in the most new fodder gets upwards of $3000 cash. you betcha I want that! How do you help?

Go Here:

even if the phone says ‘unavailable’ you can still create an account, sign up and utilize it. you can buy some of My pictures, for instance, and by signing up you’ll also get $5 free towards your first use. you really can’t go wrong and I get the credit!

GO! GO! GO!

I’ll be updating My website this weekend too to include the alertpay buttons. That should make it a little easier for wankers that are just strolling through.

Hook Me up bitches! Make Me proud!

Til later -

-E

I swear. I’m still here!

Life, again, just got REALLY busy. Lots of projects I’m assisting with and contributing to. Lots of possibilities and ideas for the future. But no need to worry My darling little sycophants! I’m still here. I’m still taking calls and the contest for the most new clients is still in effect. So there for – GET CALLING!

I want to win this contest and for that I need you. Yes, for once you pathetic little worms can actually be a benefit beyond just My simple amusement. you can actually make Me money without doing anything other then signing up, calling Me (or even another TalkSugar host) and doing what you would normally do to being with – worship Me. *winks*

you know you wanna….

and just think, you help Me accomplish this and you might even get a little surprise for your efforts.

Just in case you missed it -

Now for the good stuff.

First I’m going to start off with a review of Iron Man 2.
Let Me start off by saying that beyond anything else, I would happily sign up to have Robert Downey, Jr.’s babies. Yes. He rocks while you suck. you know you’d happily suck his cock for Me too if you were ordered (and assuming he’d be game for it as well, of course.) The movie itself was very enjoyable. I go into these things expecting a good action flick. The fact that it has some very high quality actors in it from Downey, to Paltrow, to Cheadle and Rourke doesn’t hurt it one iota.

I didn’t read Iron Man when I was into comics. Yes, I read comics and will still occasionally do so when one strikes My fancy. Live with it. So for Me, I’m watching it almost as any mundane, ‘normal’ non-comic book reading patron would view it. Granted, I have a little ‘in’ in that I have those I can turn to and say, “alright, how’d it stack up to the original?”. From what I understand the first did exceptionally well, and this wasn’t a let down either. The only real complaint I heard was that someone was upset Black Canary (played by Scarlett Johanssen) didnt have the appropriate accent. Alright, well, that’s relatively minor as her having an accent or not didn’t seem to deter from the film itself. Personally, if she couldn’t pull it off, I’d rather her NOT and not screw it up then try it and fail.

Black Canary, of course, kicked holy ASS and I absolutely fell in love with her for it. Yes, I want the costume. Yes, My own ass needs to get into the gym to be able to wear it. I’ll get there though. *winks*

Rourke was excellent as Whiplash. Man plays characters like that like a second skin, which I would assume they are to him, so it’s not surprising that I enjoyed his portrayal of the bad guy.

I wasnt sure what to make of the switch between Terrance Mann to Don Cheadle as Rhoadie/WarMachine, but I quite enjoyed the switch. Mann is, essentially, easy on the eyes. But Cheadle is a better actor and filled the part out nicely.

Downey is…well he’s Downey. I’ve already expressed My views there in. *growls*

Action was awesome. I prefer more personal combat in My films. I don’t generally like to see a lot of CGI work and what not. But for this, it works, and really gave Me what I sat down hoping to see. Lots of explosions, comedy, action and great acting for an action film without overdoing it TOO much. (Clash of the Titans could really take a lesson here) Needless to say, I give it two enthusiastic thumbs in the ass.

Maybe that’s what I should make My own personal movie rating systems! thumbs in the ass! They can be up, down, sideways or any combination there in! I rather like that idea, actually! I’m going with it.

My that was a rather long review, now, wasn’t it?

The past few weeks I’ve been under the weather as well. (This is where you “awwww” and open those wallets to send Me things to make Me happy in My recovery, btw.) Was finally starting to feel decent this weekend and squire, lovely devoted little whore that he is, treated Me to a mini-vacation in the land of mouse – otherwise known as Disney World.

Now, I’m not huge on the whole Princess thing. I generally despise princesses. My exceptions to that are Belle (since she’s not really a princess but a highly intelligent, well rounded Woman) and Ariel. The two odd-ball princesses. Go figure.

I’m also not one to be CALLED a princess. Some girls are, but they are just that. Girls. I’m a Woman. I’ll be your Goddess or Queen, thankyouverramuch.

I’m MUCH more so into the villains, of course. Give Me Maleficent especially. Or the Evil Queen. Cernabog. Oh yes, Cernabog. If you don’t know what charactre that is, google it damn it. (you expect Me to do ALL the work in My posts?!)

When it comes to the cute in Disney, I’ll take Stitch, or some of the other animal type characters.

Anyway, it was an awesome trip. I was well take care of. Doted on. Adored. And of course the sex rocked it. Hotel sex is just fun as all fuck, even when the hotel sucks.

I AM hoping to be online more the next few weeks. Going to see how My schedule plays out and what life decides to throw at Me.

For now, I’m going to go eat, read and relax for the night after having taken a grand call during the posting of this blog.

Enjoy.

Til later -

-E

Had an eye exam earlier today and of course My baby blue/greens were dilated. That’s always fun. Spent the next 5 hours (and still slightly) in a state of constant blurriness. Wheeee….perhaps people should get this done more often instead of trying recreational drugs?

I’ve been absent again. I know. Life happens. Deal. I’m looking forward to what I HOPE will be a rather laid back, relaxed weekend of being utterly pampered. We’ll see.

I had a suggestion, more like a request, over on My TalkSugar lines for a POV foot tease/beration video. I’m seriously considering it. If I am of a mood this weekend, and squire is being a cooperative little shit, then they just may get it. Course, if that happens then you all would have acces to purchasing it too.

Which leads Me to a few things and moments of promotion.

If you have requests for videos you would like to see tell Me. I might take them into consideration OR may find some of My own inspiration.

Beyond that, TalkSugar is running a promotion right now for the most new customers. Apparently they’ve also upped the award from $1500 to $3000. you know I want it. Right now the highest girl has 9. I have 2. This needs to change.

There for – go here:

And sign up. I dont need to be online for you to do this. When you sign up, you’ll get $5 towards your first call/purchase. Use it. If I’m available, call Me. If I’m not, purchase one of My buy items. That’s it. It’s all win win.

For now though, I’m going to go spend the rest of My night relaxing.

Ta!

Thanks to the new account I was able to establish over at AlertPay I am now able to accept your cold hard cash!
I LOVE IT! (especially since paypal fucked Me over!)

That being said, My website has been officially updated with payment options and tribute denominations. Go empty your wallets for Me so I can get My new place!

Let Me add, Credit Cards are NOW accepted!

I did go to see a movie this weekend as I previously considered, and I’ll post a review on it at a later date. Stay tuned.

I’m going to go watch Glee now…I want to see LOTS of $$$ in My account soon!