Change is always a constant in life. Each day, each hour, each minute provides us with new opportunities and experiences – all of which culminate into our personal development.
Being Dominant doesn’t make One exempt from this particular occurrence. I deserve to be treated and respected like the Goddess that is within Me, but I am still flesh and blood; even the Gods had their trials.
I haven’t been on much of late – I’m sure you all have missed My regular diatribe. *smiles* I have been experiencing life and all the wonderful pleasure and pain that comes with it.
It seems, in My life at least, that nothing is ever an easy road. Just when I think I can settle in for some smooth sailing, Hecate Herself seems to come down to rock the boat a little and remind Me of a few things.
Be confident, but humble. Be strong, but know when vulnerability is a strength. Be Dominant but recognize when to keep it in check (yes, in vanilla terms there are times when ever Dominant knows that they have to maintain the balance.) Be sadistic, but know also when to tend with gentleness (and realize, too, that gentleness can also be torment if used properly!) Be selfish – for you deserve it – but be selfless enough to appreciate those who provide for You. Be in control – but know when it’s acceptable to trust and delegate on various things.
Be fearless…develop unbound compassion for our own suffering and that of others..make peace with all of who you are because it is all sacred – your fear, your sadness, your anger, your confusion, your beauty.’ Waht we do is not who we are.
There are times, I believe, in every life when you are so focused on one aspect of Self, that you neglect – or simply forget – that it’s only ONE aspect of a greater whole.
Shock and surprise – even Dominant’s make mistakes. Even They, in Their infinite wisdom and core, have times where they struggle.
This has been that for Me of late.
I am all of what I wrote above. Sadistic, selfish, controlling, strong, Dominant. I am also loving, affectionate, giving, selfless, gentle and vulnerable. I’m still working on humility! *winks* But in all seriously I had been focusing so much on pursuing and exploring the latter that I have been neglecting the former out of a fear that I would be weak.
Weakness, I have been reminded, is being too stubborn to look at yourself and slow down, or recognize when there is a lack of balance.
I have, again, been reminded how blessed I am to have squire to walk this path with Me. he is a difficult pet, there is no mistake in that. There are plenty of times I want to catch that cock in stocks and make him stand there bound and unable to escape while I take some wonderous instrument of pain to his hide. *beams* But at the same time he brings out of Me that which needs to be accepted and integrated – as I have no doubt I do for him in kind. he is able to bring out the worst…but most importantly the BEST in Me. THAT to Me is what a ‘true’ exploration of this lifestyle is about.
Unfortunately, as balance is key – you can’t have one without the other.
you can play all day – but at the end of it all, if you aren’t pushing the limits of YOURSELF to be able to fully adapt, absorb, integrate and BALANCE yourself – then what the hell are you really doing here?
I started to do this as an amazingly wicked hobbie – one where I could play and make some money enjoying Myself. I’ve found in it, and through My remarkable pet, so very much more.
I am finding Me.
….and no, neither one of us are certain where that is going to take us. Neither one of us is certain what tomorrow may bring – positively or negatively. But it is evolution.
