Gnosis and Theophany

Do you have any idea how horribly difficult it is to work full-time, go to school, stay up on what’s going on AND gestate a baby all at the same time?

Needless to say – I haven’t been available or online nearly as much as I’d like more or less be able to pursue opportunities to chastise and humiliate little boy sheep. My time has been MUCH better spent elsewhere.

The time, however, is getting closer and I can certainly feel the need for that adoration and power returning.

Of course, I would much prefer someone ELSE do My homework…but My sense of propriety and honor wouldn’t allow for it even if I had a bitch to do so.

A house slave, on the other hand…now THAT would be absolutely divine!

A human footrest to elevate My feet would also be exquisite.

regardless, Talk Sugar is running a new contest and you know yours truly would love to win! All you have to do is click the banner below, sign up, put money in your account and VIOLA! Plus in doing so you also get to listen to and view ME and who doesn’t want that? Not to mention, you get the added bonus of $5 towards your first purchase!

GO and do what you’re told like a good sheep!

Of course, I haven’t been on nearly as much as I’d liked to have been since there is just SO MUCH going on!

Todays events will include taking the vehicle down to be detailed, shopping, and hopefully a movie with some glorious relaxation afterwards.

Want to share in My day? I can’t guarantee you’ll get My direct attention, but then…..you dont really need that to make Me happy.

NiteFlirt

TalkSugar

you know you wanna….

And perhaps, if you’re REALLY lucky you might even get to listen in while I make squire tend to Me.

yes, yes I have. Oh well. Deal. Miss Me did you? Do tell.

I have damn good, and exciting, reason to have taken an extended holiday from My Domme-ly type fun. Mainly, the sheer fact I’ve been utterly exhausted growing a new life. Yes, that’s right. Dear Ol’ Eavan is good and well pregnant; needless to say the (I expect) diva in waiting is much like it’s Momma!

For all you pregnancy fetishists out there, get to cracking! I’ve got My phone listings at both TalkSugar and NiteFlirt updated.

Not to mention, there is SO much to do and all you darling sycophants can provide Me so much assistance. How wonderful would it be to know that you not only were helping your Divine Being with something fantastic and beyond amazing in Her life, you get to help Her soon-to-be-offspring.

Just consider the possibilities! Cuckolding, the sheer thought that someone else was allowed to not just pleasure Me, but impregnate Me, financial domination, oh the joys! Not to mention all the spoiling shopping I get to go do!

So, needless to say, you all need to get off your asses, and start making Me happy. I’m horribly hormonal as it is, and need a few whipping posts to take it out on.

Till later –

E

Eyup. That’s been the last three days for Me…sheer and utter hell.

Being that I’m going to go away next week, I’ve been trying to get everything done at work so that I don’t leave My co-workers stranded. See, I’m not always an utter bitch.

That, however, has led to My working three consecutive 12 hour days. By the time I get done with work, I don’t want to look at a computer any more more or less talk to anyone, which is also why the phones have been dead….

Speaking of which…a little reminder.

Cheer My disgruntled ass up by filling My wallet before I leave!

This weekend I’m going to be running around spending $$ on pampering for Myself. Haircut, pedicure – gotta get Myself in order for My lovely trip into relaxation!

Want details? Well you’re in lucky because you can either call those lines while I’m away (and be ignored while I thoroughly enjoy Myself – maybe you’ll get lucky and call while I’m tormenting the hell out of squire!) OR you can fatten up My accounts and possibly get a little extra something in your mail from Me. Maybe, if I’m feeling benevolent.

Which reminds Me, have a few things in mind for squire during this adventure. Jealous, aren’t you? Obedient little whore gets My attention for a full week…you should be jealous. your prick certainly isn’t getting that sort of attention and DEFINITELY not from Me.

I may even update here and there while I’m away….so stay tuned.

I’ll be heading out here in a bit to be pampered and adored as I should be!

Make sure your adding to My enjoyment!

Buy My stuff and call the lines to be utterly ignored while I have a blast!

We did go car shopping after My last blog. Came to find out there were some serious screw ups on My credit report so needless to say I’m now working with the financial institutions to have them adjusted/corrected. Gotta love that.

squire, bless his heart, did everything he could to assist but even wit his stellar credit the banks were being an ass. I hate that.

Needless to say, I loved driving the Hyundai Sonata. Granted, I WANT a BMW – preferably a 5 series or an X5….but I could be very happy with a Sonata right now and put off the Beemer until My next vehicle.

In other news, I’ve had the lines on regularly and yet idiots still seem to manage to ‘miss’ Me. I’m generally logged in to take calls easily from 8 – 10 EST most weekdays and generally all weekend. Some weekends I’ll take ‘off’ for some personal Me time…which is to be expected. But I still find it funny when I get messages that “i logged in but you weren’t online”….well…NO bastard, not at 1 am! I DO need to sleep. Now, granted, if I AM up that late I will generally still have the lines open, but if I do you’re just a lucky SOB.

Which reminds Me…phone lines are as follows:

you know you wanna….

Also along those lines, the webcam hasn’t been available for a few weeks. This is partly because I want a new cam…but also because I had a bit of a tumor removed from My cheek. I’ve had it removed a few times now, each time it’s thankfully been benign, but it’s annoying and persistent. Even more so the healing of it which, though I know you all wouldn’t mind one iota – I do. So therefore I’ve kept the cam off until it’s sufficiently healed for My tastes.

Have some things planned on the near horizon that I’m quite looking forward to. I’ll divulge details either during or after the fact.

For now, go spend that hard earned cash on Me – if nothing else you can write it off as an early birthday present.

So this weekend I decided I wanted to learn how to shoot a gun. Not ever having done so, the whole thing intrigued Me and I will admit to wanting to overcome My personal anxieties about firearms. My family never kept them; sport shooting, hunting, etc weren’t hobbies any of the men in My family partook of.

Lucky for Me, squire is fluent in firearms. So guess what he got to so this past weekend? he had the honor and priviledge to take Me to the shooting range, offer Me instruction on safety and techniques, and rent Me a gun to use for practice. 

he was even obedient enough to take a picture of Me in the process! I was rather impressed by that, as I had really mentioned it in passing that we should take pics while we were there, and lo and behold what did I get delivered to My phone a little later that evening?

Gotta love it!

My hand, unfortunately is very sore from the recoil on the weapong itself, and I’m sad to report that My targetting needs a ton of practice. I have to learn to relax into it more and stop anaylzying Myself in the process. Seems I’m as hard on Myself as I am My devotees. But that’s only because I hold Myself to high standards, as I expect to be treated accordingly.

I was quite proud of one particular target however, so I kept it for posterity. Mind you, again, I haven’t EVER picked up a firearm before this, so I was rather proud of My progress initially. I realize it will take more practice and look forward to going back soon enough to do just that!

I don’t remember now which target number this was, and one of the ones after it, in My frustration for missing completely, I hit the ring around the bullseye itself….but this one I was still very pleased with, all things considered.

Needless to say, I loved it and very much want to continue this new skill! Just have to remember advice I give to prospects…just breathe. Trust yourself, relax and breath. Good thing I’m patient as all hell! *winks*

In addition to that, I also managed to skin My own thumb in the process. Apparently My nail was just long enough, and was jagged from being snagged, and every time I pulled the trigger I managed to scrap off a little more skin on that first box of ammo.

Had to resist the urge to stick the finger into My mouth and ‘clean’ it. There was a pretty decent amount of blood, but with the dust from firing and what not, I didn’t think it the best idea.

Band-aid was located and use for the second box and that improved things some.

squire and I then spent the rest of the day shopping, even though he was exhausted from lack of sleep. his natal day is coming up fairly quickly and I really need to figure out what to get him for it.

Anyway, going to watch the mindless drivel that is “True Beauty” and relax before heading to bed. Just wanted to post about My lovely little outing this weekend.

Til later -

-E

which means you all should take advantage of My phone lines on TalkSugar and NiteFlirt to appease your Goddess.

I have a new listing over on NiteFlirt as well; the link will take you to it. There are photo sets and tribute buttons there for you to utilize. This means you should go now and start forking it all over, kitties.

Which reminds Me, there is still a contest going on over at TalkSugar for new clientele. The host that brings in the most new clients will win up to $3000.00 CASH. you know what that means, right? I WANT TO WIN! And unfortunately, the only way I can manage that is with obedient, devoted little kittens clicking the link and signing up. Do it. DO IT. I dont even need to be logged in for you to accomplish this – you just have to sign up. Perk for your prick? you’ll get $5 free towards your first call/purchase! That means you can photo sets of Me at a discount on your first purchase if I’m not there to hear My sweet, intoxicating voice!

AND I’ll even give you links to My NiteFlirt listing:

I have been considering more ideas for things you little kittens can snatch up and play with. Videos, pictures, blog posts, etc. More of ME to see and especially hear, even when I might not be available directly, that will also fatten My wallet. After all, I do enjoy shopping so! Video and such might very well be taken while I’m on vacation in July. I’ll open the forums now – should you have any ideas, and I’m certain you all reading this do, now is the time to put in requests.

Mind you, just because I’m asking for what perverted, warped, self-serving ideas you pathetic losers have in those pea-brains of yours doesn’t mean that they will be fulfill. However, if something is creative, intelligent (doubt it) and workable for Me and My tastes, I might be inclined to incorporate it into something tangible. If you don’t ask, after all, how in the world do you ever get what you want? (Unless of course, you’re Me and simply demand it.)

Now, let Me remind you all as well that My birthday is fast approaching on the 3rd of July. Now would be a good time to start preparing as I want to see multitudes of presents for Me on any of the means outlined on My website.

Make sure you follow Me on twitter for updates.

Now, onto the good stuff!

I DID go to see Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time today. Over all I was pleasantly surprised! Now, mind you, geek Goddess that I am, I haven’t played the video game the movie is based off of, (yes, it’s based on a video game and yes, I am enough of a geek to have known that prior to seeing it.) so I’m not sure story continuity wise how well it adhered to the origins, but I wasn’t expecting over much, Gyllenhaal and Bruckheimer none-with-standing.

I’ve also never been an overly fond fan of Jake Gyllenhaal. Though I’ve loved his work in Brokeback Mountain, Donnie Darko and The Good Girl.

I was also skeptical having seen early released photographs of him in that hideous wig. See proof below:

Really though, watching the movie, it was hard to stay focused on the wig much when faced with this:

Beyond that however, I was rather impressed. The story line was simple enough, though somewhat transparent in scope. It was entertaining and the sword play ROCKED; was quite impressed with the action scenes, their choreography and how they were filmed.

Gemma Arterton is just beautiful to Me, even though her voice can get a little grating at times:

There is a plethora of costuming I would like to do from this movie already so that means I need the funds. you want to see your sadistic geek Goddess in something like this:

than get moving on those tithes!

Anyway, the movie was more than I expected, which is probably a good thing. It wasn’t as fun as, say Sherlock Holmes in scope, but it was worth the money spent at the theater. Certainly one I’ll add the the library once it’s on DVD. Was unfortunate that squire was unavailable to accompany Me – the poor dear.

I’m getting sleepy though, so I think it’s time for some quiet (if My neighbors will afford Me that, the self-entitled assholes that they are), ice cream and vegetating in front of the tube for a while. Call, you know you want to!

-E

So I’m at work (yes, I work. Eventually I won’t have to now, will I kitties?) and I’m on My personal account in Facebook (here in referred to as FB) land. No, I don’t have one set up for My sadistic pleasures, deal.

I’m plodding along My day when an Instant Message (here in referred to as IM) pops up. Okay cool. It’s someone that requested to friend Me eons ago. I didn’t know him ,but being that he had a few people that he knew from My younger years who were pretty cool I decided to give him a shot. I have had one (brief) prior conversation with him on FB IM. This is a transcript of the conversation so as to show males, vanilla, BDSM or otherwise how NOT to approach a Female – regardless her inclinations.

Names (both his and My own) have been changed for protection.

Mind you, I was going exceptionally easy on him seeing as A.) this is My vanilla personal account, B.) he has no idea about My Interests, and C.) he wasn’t paying Me to berate or humiliate him and he did such a lovely job of it himself….why should I bother?

Idiot
hey babe

2:12pmMe
Um hi

2:15pmIdiot
hey babe

2:15pmMe
already said that idiot

2:15pmIdiot
well
I KNOW THAT
oops caps
haha
miss you
well?

2:17pmMe
Ok…let me set out some boundaries here. 1.) I’m not all that comfy with people I dont know calling me babe – but will generally let it go cause I realize that a lot of people use that genericall. 2.) telling me you miss me when we haven’t really ever talked is just…odd….to me.

2:20pmMe
Just my level of comfort for you to know about

3:06pmIdiot
ok
were straight

3:10pmMe
good

3:11pmIdiot
haha
cool\
i love your level of comfort

3:13pmIdiot
and far be it for te fuck it up
me
to fuck it up

3:14pmMe
I just dont appreciate people showing levels of intimacy that aren’t warranted, more or less cleared as acceptable. I never understand that with people.
I just think it’s disrespectful

3:15pmIdiot
ok,I’ll just call you woman..??

3:15pmMe
that will get you smacked

3:15pmIdiot
haha

3:15pmMe
and not in a playful way

3:15pmIdiot
ok
so what should i call you..
??
cuz I feel a kinda bond with you
but if you want me to feel indifferent..

3:17pmMe
My name works quite well and look, I realize you’re trying to be all jovial and what not, and that’s fine, but if you’re going to act in this manner with me, I’d just prefer not to. And how can you feel a bond with someone you’ve only spoken to, briefly at that, in IM once?

3:17pmIdiot
ok granted
I just felt something
guess i was wrong??
>/???????????????????
ok miss Isolde..
nice to met you
meet
wow..you have soo figured me out
amazing
and me being jovial…damn..

3:22pmIdiot
I was just tryin to be nice…..so I guess that classifies me as bein jovial..get your classfications straight before you judge me,,thanks,
later]

idiot has since been removed from My friends list, needless to say. I wouldn’t tolerate that in any area of My life, period. And apparently the idiot needs to update his vocabulary.

So take this to heart My eager little bitches – when approaching someone for the first time, or if you don’t have a developed relationship with said person in question:

1.) don’t show a level of intimacy that is non-existent.
2.) don’t try to be a comical idiot when they explain their boundaries, especially when they are giving you benefit of the doubt and doing so courteously
3.) don’t go getting all defensive when the Female figures you out in a few heartbeats and you don’t get what you want.

It’s all unbecoming and, quite frankly, makes Me laugh though not in the way you would like Me to.

So chew on that for a while kitties….

Til later

-E

But good none-the-less!

Saw Robin Hood last night. I was rather underwhelmed, which is truly what I expected going in; so at least it didn’t let Me down. I felt as though I were watching Gladiator only 500 years later and with a better love interest. Though I could appreciate the new spin on a classic ballad, it didn’t give Me anything new I hadn’t seen before.

Spent the day shopping with squire. I didn’t get much, honestly. Nothing really caught My interest today and said BUY ME though there were a number of times, much to My delight that squire was a good pet and asked if there was anything of interest he should get for Me.

Such a good pet. he really is trying to come to terms with himself in order to properly serve Me. Got a bit cocky…excuse the pun…the other night during sex but when he saw how easy it was for Me to literally pull away and ‘turn it off’ I’m certain he understood. Luckily for him I not only enjoy him servicing Me, but I love the little bastard.

he’s also working on preparing a bit of a vacation for Me this summer…one which you can all contribute to as well since it will be right after My birthday. you know what that means, too, don’t you? I’ll be expecting to be WELL and truly taken care of for My natal day festivities. I expect you all to address and lavish presents on Me accordingly. At least I’m giving you time to prepare.

Tomorrow is suiting up to be a day of working and rest – how I’m going to manage to accomplish both yet remains to be seen. But I’m certain in My own ability to accomplish it.

But since it is very late, and I want to finish reading Changes I am signing off My phone lines (Talksugar & Niteflirt) Though I’m logged off to receive calls, it doesnt mean you cant still send Me monetary signs of your devotion through tithes. Get to it pigs!

I may even reward you if you impress Me.

Til later

-E